Give it.

ouchie  oh yes ouchie

Today Gabe is wearing a brown sweatshirt, khaki pants, one brown shoe, white socks, and one blue boot.

One blue boot?

You guys, Gabe broke his foot! On a trail run, last weekend. He stepped on a rock and thought he just twisted his ankle but spoiler alert — he broke his gol’dern foot.

No sooner do I smack this poor guy in the face with a baseball than he’s breaking a foot trying to go on a trail run. Is the universe trying to tell Gabe to stop having fun? (If it is, the message isn’t getting through, as Gabe has now taken to laughing loudly while sitting splay-legged on the couch watching baseball, with one foot aloft on a mountain of pillows.)

So it’s been a very unusual week around our house, with Gabe limping around in a blue boot and me trying to remember how to be sensitive to someone with a serious injury. Oh, you can’t walk 6 blocks at lightning speed to this restaurant? Hm, how strange. Oh right, you have a broken foot. Sorry.

Meanwhile, I’m in the middle of working on a writing assignment that I just hate — well, no, I don’t hate it, but I am not inspired and it is like torture drawing every individual word out of my brain, so in that way I guess I do hate it — but which I will oh so soon be done with.

After that, I’m going on a juice fast that I’m very excited about, and on which I will certainly be reporting here. Day 2: hungry. Day 3: hungry. Etc. But seriously, I am really looking forward to it and think it’s going to be a fun, delicious, weird experience.

She bangs.

whats he building in there   what the hell is he building in there

Today Gabe is wearing blue sunglasses, a maroon sweatshirt, khaki pants, and brown shoes.

This week the very most exciting news in my world is that I got bangs. Bangs, you guys!

One of my best friends is dating a hair stylist and let me tell you it’s the best. He gives me Capital-G-Great haircuts, and as someone who once cut off all of her long hair into a pixie cut in her sophomore dorm bathroom, it is a treat to now have this resource for amazing haircuts.

I play a little fast and loose with my hair. I haven’t gotten it cut professionally for years (since the sophomore dorm bathroom incident, actually) and I’ve had it long, short, red, blonde, and everything always seems to turn out fine.

But now, there’s this man who actually knows what he’s doing *and* is a friend *and* doesn’t charge $700 for an amazing haircut? Oh boy. I am home.

So now I have bangs, and I guess that’s the most exciting event of my week. (That’s probably not true, but that’s what I’m blogging about because, well, because.)

But now in more important topics, this blog post would not be complete without a BIG UPS to my girl Stacey aka my mom. Happy Mother’s Day! Thank you for the life, and for always helping me correct my many blog typos, and for laughing at (most of) my jokes, and for picking me up when I was sick at school, and for playing hooky with me that one day in preschool, and for helping me with all the mom things you have helped me with over the years.

I did a long-distance Mother’s Day gift coordination this year with my dad (big ups to my man Karl), and I hope you like it. It’s not much, but I think you will *greatly* enjoy the results.

And a Happy Mother’s Day to Gabe’s mom Judi too. I’ll be reminding Gabe to call you tomorrow, though I am sure he will remember to on his own. :)

So in conclusion, yay bangs, yay moms.

It’s obviously time for me to go to bed.

PS. It’s especially clear to me that it’s time to go to bed, because in proofreading this I realized I did not even address what Gabe is doing in this post’s unusual photos. Well, the answer is some pretty cool Andy Goldsworthy-inspired nature/balance art. By the end of the photo shoot, Gabe had four rocks balanced on a horizontal stick, balanced on a vertical stick, stuck into a log.

But more on Gabe’s supernatural abilities to make cool structures in a future post.

Smash putt.

oh no don't look   just kidding totally fine you guys

Today Gabe is wearing a blue t-shirt, red shorts, and brown flip flips.

Well, it finally happened.

Three years ago, Gabe decided to get into baseball. We were living in San Francisco, and the Giants were just about the most lovable team there was. We followed them all season, and Gabe was heartily rewarded with a World Series win. Not too shabby.

One year ago, Gabe decided to get into playing baseball. He had been watching for two years, and wanted to get out there with a bat and glove, and figure out what it is all his favorite players were doing all day. I grew up playing baseball, and offered to help guide him on his journey to learn how to field a grounder without hopping in the air, closing his eyes, and putting his glove…somewhere in the vicinity of where he hoped the ball would be.

One day ago, Gabe and I went to a nearby park with a baseball field for some grounder practice. I hit balls to him while he stood at shortstop and well, long story short: I hit Gabe in the face with a baseball.

I got hit in the face with a baseball when I was seven or eight. I was at first base, and the third baseman was about to throw the ball to me to get the runner out. Just as she let the ball fly, the umpire said something to me. I don’t know why. I don’t remember what he said. Suffice to say, it was unorthodox to speak to a player right as someone was about to throw the ball to them. So I turned to look at him. I said, “What?” And that’s when a baseball smashed into my face.

I didn’t freak out (I think I was in shock, and had lots of adrenaline pumping from what was a fairly competitive game by 8 year old standards) but lived the rest of my childhood baseball career having already survived everyone’s worst fear: getting hit in the face with the ball so hard it leaves stitch marks in your cheek.

Yesterday, after I’d been hitting Gabe some grounders for a while, he suggested a game. “Why don’t you hit me a grounder, then run to first. If I can throw it home before you get to first base, then I get a point. If it’s after you get to first, then you get a point.” I agreed, knocked a grounder into the field, and started sprinting to first base, my eye on the ball the whole time.

When the ball reached the grass of the outfield, after having been content to roll along the ground for the full distance of the field, it suddenly leapt into the air and set a course directly for Gabe’s face. I saw it hit, and I heard it hit, and I watched a spray of sweat (that I, at the time, thought was teeth) blast off Gabe’s face.

I veered sharp to the left and ran to the outfield, mentally planning a route to the hospital and trying to remember the name of Gabe’s insurance provider, only to discover my boyfriend standing there rattled, but completely fine.

Turns out, his sunglasses (you know the ones) had absorbed all the impact. They had flown off his head several feet, and were sadly broken, but they saved Gabe’s face from the fate of an inches-wide bruise, stitch marks from a baseball, and a lot of weird looks.

As we stood together in the outfield, Gabe said, “Really I feel fine! Do you want to keep playing?” And I said, “No, Gabe, I don’t think I’m going to hit any more baseballs at you today.”

And that’s the story of how I hit Gabe in the face with a baseball.

Bad taste.

oh no thank you   yuck

Today Gabe is wearing a grey sweatshirt. a green jacket, khaki pants, and brown shoes.

I just finished a conference call with a life coach/teacher/inspirer who is running a three week course on improving your willpower. I signed up for the course as part of my job, and I’m feeling a little bit weird about it. (Which is why I chose pictures of Gabe looking so displeased today.)

I signed up not as a regular needs-to-be-inspired student, but to learn how to run an effective course. I’m trying to learn things like how to keep the content engaging and valuable, and how to market it, and everything else about running something like this for the startup I’m working on. I joined just for research and work purposes, but after I signed up, I had the thought, “Maybe I’ll also learn a little something about old Kate Stull too.”

But the thing is – everything about a course like this makes me roll my eyes. Everything.

I don’t want to be inspired. I don’t want to hear that I sparkle. I especially don’t want to hear about it from a stranger on a 60-person conference call, who is oh-most-definitely reading it off a script. No thanks, lady.

But since it was for work, and it was paid for, and I was going to be super engaged with it anyways to learn how it works, I was also a little bit excited to have the opportunity to think about myself (yay) and my goals and the future. I’m super concerned about where my career is going and how I’m spending my time and what exactly my goals are. Like all the time.

So I’m there on this conference call, taking notes and being highly skeptical, and then I find myself getting sucked into these visualizations of future self who has accomplished all these things and she’s telling me how she did it, and feeling like…super inspired. In spite of myself.

And the whole time it feels so dumb. But even so. Ugh.

Anyways, I’ll keep everyone posted on how inspired/uninspired I’m feeling as the process continues. It’s going to be a weird three weeks.

Finger wag.

bench warmer   nah coach it's cool

Today Gabe is wearing a green jacket, a grey sweatshirt, khaki pants, and brown shoes.

Gabe took a little creative license today and decided to pose on the bench instead of in front of the beach as usual. I have to say – I like it! Several months ago when I started this blog, I thought of Gabe would be turn out to be an unwilling model after the novelty wore off, but he sure seems to have gotten comfortable in his new role, hasn’t he?

I’ve had a draft of this post in my dashboard for days now. It’s been sitting, and I’ve been not writing it.

I’m not sure why?

Nothing to say.

But it’s weird to have writer’s block on a blog where you can talk about anything you want — serious or dumb or snail-related — because, well, what’s stopping you?

It could just be that I’ve been writing a lot for work recently (in fact, I wrote this thing!) and my creativity has just been a little more tapped than usual. I’ve been writing guest posts, and blog posts, and twitters, and emails, and maybe my little fingers just can’t type another word that isn’t a Google search of “how do I turn this computer off”.

What do you do when you’re not feeling creative?

Track suit.

king of pop   he's a thriller

Today Gabe is wearing blue sunglasses, a maroon sweatshirt, a green jacket, khaki pants, and brown shoes.

“Boy we sure are reminiscing today, aren’t we?”

“Well. What else are we supposed to do? We’re old guys.”

A group of self-proclaimed old guys sitting in a coffee shop in my little hometown in Illinois were talking about the best place to buy a hot dog in town when they were all dating their wives. It was boring and endearing.

I just flew back to Seattle from my undisclosed hometown location and boy are my arms tired.

Thunder clap.

to the right   to the left

Today Gabe is wearing blue sunglasses, a black t-shirt, a maroon sweatshirt, green jacket, khaki pants, and brown shoes.

I had a little bit of a wake-up today. For the last little while, I’ve been feeling…preoccupied. By things related to work, like wondering where I stand, what’s going to happen next, if I’m doing well enough – or even well at all. And I’ve felt preoccupied by day-to-day things like what I should be doing, where I might be going, if the way I spent my day was right or wrong.

Alert: this is not helpful thinking.

Or at least, not helpful when it gets in the way of you actually getting anything done the way you want.

But today, I got a good reminder from my personal advisor (who I call Dad) that instead of spinning my wheels in nervous, worrying energy, that I could make myself feel better about all these worries (and improve my odds of not having things to worry about on top of it) if I just applied that energy into productivity. That is, if I turned my worry time into writing time. Or spreadsheet time. Or museum time.

Whatever it is you’re worried that you’re doing too much, or not enough, or not well enough – if you’re sure it’s a problem, then the easiest way to feel better is to get down to fixing it.

If you feel you’re not writing enough, start writing. If you’ve been putting off a project you know is important, do the first step today. Then do step two, and then step three.

Worrying is comforting because it makes you feel busy without you having to do anything at all. But it wastes time and energy and just delays getting the things you want to do – or the things you know you should do – done.

More often then not, we already know the right thing to do. We just have to stop thinking, and do it.

“Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow, it empties today of its strength.”  ― Corrie ten Boom