Today Gabe is wearing a brown sweatshirt, khaki pants, one brown shoe, and one blue boot.
I am on day one of my juice cleanse and I will just cut to chase: yuck. I feel…cranky. Headache-y. Tired.
I have done short cleanses before and I know feeling kind of tired and out of it, especially at the beginning, is normal. I also know that lots of people fast for days or weeks at a time, and do it quite successfully, or at least, get on with their lives while they’re doing it. But right now — living in it, writing about it — this is the absolute pits.
I first got intrigued by the idea of fasting after listening to one of my very favorite authors, David Rakoff, go through a fast and talk about it on This American Life a few years ago. Here’s the audio. I love this story (though I love basically everything David Rakoff ever did) and I’m listening to it for motivation. And also just to make some minutes pass before I can go to bed.
This morning, before listlessness set in, I went to the doctor for the first time in a while and found out I have a very healthy-sounding heart. For the rest of the day, I’ve been pretending to be productive and trying to accomplish things, slowly. Very slowly.
I don’t seem to be able to do much of anything, really. I went for a walk, I did some work.
I hope things pick up tomorrow.